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Dancing on My Grave files Dancing on My Grave, read online Dancing on My Grave, free Dancing on My Grave, free Dancing on My Grave, Dancing on My Grave 17ea18b5f The Shattering Story Of A Dream Which Became A Heartbreaking Nightmare For One Of America S Most Famous Ballerinas, Gelsey Kirkland, Who Chronicles Her Brilliant Start As A Dancer With George Balanchine, Her Legendary Partnership With Mikhail Baryshnikov, Her Agonizing Descent Into Drugs, And Her Struggles To Rise Again


10 thoughts on “Dancing on My Grave

  1. says:

    Update Lord, I d forgotten how difficult it is to read this book Gelsey s pain is palpable What is, perhaps, even distressing is reading the response here on goodreads Gelsey never intended to promote anorexia, drug addiction, or promiscuity She doesn t deserve such contempt from readers My own reservations aside, it was brave of her to write so candidly about addiction and mental illness, and of the very real abuses visited upon her It s clear to me that she earnestly wishes to improve herself and the culture that exploited her I respect her for that.She s also the greatest ballerina of all time Review It s about the dark side of ballet I can appreciate that.Sadly, and despite Kirkland s best efforts, it s one of those cautionary tales that amounts to thinspiration.


  2. says:

    It saddens me when readers rate a memoir based on their perceptions of an author s choices and struggles.Dancing on My Grave chronicles Kirkland s journey to prima ballerina status while battling multiple addictions and bulimia As you muddle through some of the cringe worthy details of her relationship with Mikhail Baryishnikov, you ll probably find some of the passages in the book difficult to digest.Still, Kirkland is brave and achingly honest in this memoir I applaud Kirkland for her eyes wide open portrayal of the expectations and demands placed on professional dancers If you ve ever seen Kirkland dance, whether live or on film, you already know that she s talented, strong, and extremely gifted Just once, I would love to see Kirkland s memoir rated for the searing, candid account that it is instead of read reviewers commentary on the mistakes she made along the way.


  3. says:

    One of the greatest bad ass ballerinas of all time, Gelsey Kirkland s book is a wild testament to self mutilation in pursuit of ballet feet a sort of binding for art s sake to ballet body aka anorexia and cocaine snuffling and other forms of rollercoaster recreation.Her romance with Mikhail Baryshnikov gets a bit overwrought in places, but for the most part whether you like ballet or not I guarantee you ll bury your nose in this one for months to come.


  4. says:

    I think I might have liked this book IF 1 I knew who Gelsey Kirland was Apparently she was a very famous ballerina and even danced with Baryshnikof yes, I totally made up how to spell that But she was pretty famous a few years before I was bornso I missed out 2 my thighs were not flabby and did not touch each other when I stand normally My dream is to have those strong, muscular ballet thighs Or, if I could have the really thin kind that have a space between them Man, my jeans would wear out WAY less often if there was space instead of rubbing when I walked Anyways, I was under the impression that this book was about the lurid life filled with anorexia and cocaine Not that I particularly support either of those things, but they sure would have made for an interesting book Instead, the book briefly mentioned those two interesting things and decided to focus instead on boring stuff, like contract disputes and whining by the author There were a couple days that she didn t eat I think that was the anorexia part And about 20 pages from the end she got hooked on coke Even then, not so exciting.Ok, so it got me to thinking about how my life could have spiraled out of control and end with me on cocaine But by some smart self defeating actions I saved myself It all began with the 4th grade spelling bee.I am a good speller I don t always type the write spelling hahaha , but I KNOW what the right spelling is I beat out all the 5th graders in our school spelling bee, except one All I had to do was out spell one kid and I was going to the county bee But I knew that meant that I would have to GO somewhere, ie not just do it during school while I was already there My mom was always really weird about me participating in things She was always VERY busy I never did figure that out because she only had two kids that she never allowed to do anything or go anywhere or take any lessons or do any sports and she didn t have a job I have no idea what that lady did all day I always had to do the dishes, vacuum, take out the garbage, and fold the laundry including my parent s underwear super upsetting Anyways, so I purposely misspelled a word so that I would NOT win and therefore have to explain to my mom that I had won and needed a ride to the next level of competition.Also, I could not help but worry about WHAT IF I HAD TO GO TO THE BATHROOM DURING THE SPELLING BEE That was a terrible worry of mine for many years Not specifically needing to pee during spelling bees, but needing to go in a public restroom You are probably thinking I am a germophone No It was because I watched an episode of Magnum PI where TC s child got kidnapped when he went to the bathroom The mother had let the child go by himself and the bad guys smuggled him out the bathroom window Luckily TC was good buddies with Mangum PI, so the kid was recovered by the end of the show But my parents did not know ANY private investigators So who was going to find me if I got kidnapped from the bathroom I m pretty sure that episode really affected my mom also because she would not even let me go to the bathroom alone But instead of graciously accompanying me she would get really upset and act like it was a HUGE inconvience Knowing that it was a big deal made me just have to go even It was an exhausting couple of years Anyway, the point is that I purposely lost the spelling bee and therefore saved myself from a life of fame that would have surely spiralled into anorexia and drugs.


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    The cover claims this starts as a fairy tale That is untrue.Nonetheless, the first 5 6 of the book were fascinating for one entirely uninitiated to ballet Gelsey Kirkland s explorations, questions, insistence on pursuing art for art s sake in the form of dramatic dance, gave me I think previously unknown insight into the expressiveness and creativity of movement.Her relationship with Mikhail Baryshnikov frequently made me want to scream His two dimensionality outside the ballet, and her dependence on him, were excruciating But he redeemed himself somewhat in his, however misguided, attempts at a kind of stand offish help and support during her battles with drug addiction Maybe in a limited way he loved her.After 5 6 of the book it becomes nightmarish in a drug induced haze I suppose there isn t much else she can say for herself in the early 80 s drugs prevent that kind of insight and analysis that had previously characterized her writing, and she could only write that she socialized with those who supported her habit, missed lots of appointments, and gave performances not worthy of the skill that she had slaved to develop, but which were often critically acclaimed.Fortunately, she did ultimately work through her addiction by finding what appears to have been one of the first mutually supportive and creatively and spiritually matched relationships she had with a man in her life It sounds as though she is turned to learning up a storm of classical greats and beginning to share her knowledge with up and coming dancers, finding a way of healthfully nurturing and being nurtured Wikipedia says she s doing well.


  6. says:

    Gelsey Kirkland s dancing 5 stars Gelsey Kirkland s memoir of dancing meh Some here indicate this is required reading for any aspiring ballet dancer, and I ll grant you that it will give you an eye opening look at the dark side of the dance world But the focus here is on a mess of a woman who would have found destruction no matter her vocation I did find it an interesting insight into the world of Balanchine, though, so for that there was value Beyond that, however, I think an aspiring dancer could do better spending their time studying the lives of successful people who happened to dance, than to focus on this successful dancer who was a mess of a person.


  7. says:

    My dance teacher told me about this book, and mentioned Gelsey Kirkland s hellish descent into drug abuse, eating disorders, messed up relationships, et al I kept reading and reading, and the book was good, but I was like, okay, so her relationships are totally messed up, but where s the coke Well, believe me, it takes awhile but it sure does deliver the goods At one point, she actually does a line of sweet and low I remember that was a joke in high school Anyway, this was totally entertaining, a well written trashy memoir.


  8. says:

    I had to stop reading this book It was too painful The author is was a famous ballerina, who was emotionally and, arguably, physically abused by George Balanchine, the founder of her ballet company and American ballet as we know it actually I thought it would be fun to read about her stories of being a ballerina Boy, was I wrong I had to stop because it was causing me pain to read about the things she had to do for ballet, some of which was also brought on by her own mental issues When she asked Balanchine to help her with her significant physical pain at the age of, I believe, 17 , he pooh poohed it and told her to drink red wine What Before I became a mom, I possibly could have read this book The abuse she underwent would have been something I could have compartmentalized But all I could see and feel was an abused girl being treated as a sophisticated woman Even if only a fraction of what she says is true, she was a pawn in the world of ballet as Balanchine has created it for us Imagine reading a book that makes you feel ill about something you love and find beautiful, that, in fact, the man who created the version of that thing, as you know it, was doing shortcuts, dumbing things down, not doing the proper version of it because he wanted to ram it down our throats and make money Now imagine that he put his staff through physical torture deliberately I don t know if I can ever see ballet again I had to stop It was truly interesting though to read this book after reading 2 other novels about ballerinas I can see exactly where the other authors obtained some of their ideas from for their books, both because they probably lived it and because Ms Kirkland lived it I might have been able to keep going except that Ms Kirkland had so much venom for Balanchine, who was her boss for the portion of the book I read, that the reading was feeling toxic to me Balanchine even played Ms Kirkland against her sister, and she, herself, played along I couldn t help but feeling I had been recruited, unknowingly, into being Ms Kirkland s therapist and not a good one at that When this book originally was published, it was before internet and the cable news era so perhaps it was less jarring of a read when not also accompanied by the daily bad news that we cannot escape from in the internet age If you want to continue to like ballet, then don t read this book.


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    Bleah Why did I want to read this book I read it years ago when I was interested in Barishnikov s defection from Russia, and also when I was following the careers of ballerinas he danced with Why I was struck to read it again is beyond me.This is a pitiful story Gelsey Kirkland was a gifted dancer, but from the beginning lost and insecure The daughter of an older alcoholic father he had 5 marriages and 5 heart attacks , she spends the rest of the book seeking for someone to love her She is immature, foolish, and destructive at an age when most people have grown up She falls into eating disorders then cocaine drug use Her rage at the doctors who treat her in the mental institution is terrible to see.And the end She does grow up some and see her own responsibility for the mess she has become, and she tries to make amends with many of those who had helped her and she hurt or used them But in doing additional reading, I find that the husband she had found at the end of this book is no longer her husband.I give her credit for the honest and open view she gives into the world of ballet I give her credit also for writing about the things that she has done which were terrible I also give her credit for wanting to try to make things better How sad for her that she wasted her dancing, wasted relationships with other dancing professionals her relationship with Barishnikov was almost irreparably damaged by her very foolish treatment of him , and now has wasted a marriage she had written about as saving her So she ends up as she began lost and insecure.


  10. says:

    I really lost patience with this book It was at least 100 pages too long and seemed to be written too soon, before any of the wounds had healed She wrote with a chip on her shoulder, which failed to evoke any pity from me, and I came away without a solid understanding of why she put herself through all of that in order to dance Did she love it If you watch videos of her dancing, it s incredible, but all you see in this book is the pain and the hurt feelings and a lot of poor me Plus, are we really supposed to believe that she quit drugs cold turkey, all on her own This book is gossipy and melodramatic and largely ugly everything that Suzanne Farrell s book is not Read hers or Toni Bentley s instead they show that it s possible to write about the world of ballet, which is admittedly a tough world to live in, graciously and elegantly This book has neither of those qualities.


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